thank you

Thank you so much everyone for you thoughts, prayers and for the fast. That means so much to me!! I have been an emotional wreck. Tho i have to have hope that all will be well next Friday. We are currently at my in-laws, Kevin is helping take off the shingles on the roof so they can put a new set on. Last night my MIL and i ran over to the Rupert Hospital and did an HCG test (cause she works in the lab and they did it for free). My numbers are still increasing greatly. The tech that was working last night read in a book that they are right where they are supposed to be for how far along i am. But then he gave a "warning", he said "it just means your body is building something i can't say that it is geneticaly correct". Since he is no Dr, he didn't want to get my hopes up that everything will be OK. But to see the numbers so increased gave me some Hope. So that was nice. Thanks Linda!

ok news...

Well, we went to our appointment this morning in Boise. I was very anxious this morning. Tho very hopefully. We got called back pretty quick after arriving. The tech started the ultrasound and there in the WAY FAR UPPER right corner there is the sac. Just one. It was hard to get a good view of it with the "internal" u/s view...so we tried on top of the belly. Got a little better view. Still not great. I got even more anxious (& teary) and she was having a very hard time finding everything. She was concerned so she got the Doctor to come in and do a little viewing herself. So in comes Dr. Slater and she started taking a look. Sure enough the sac looks great, there's a yolk sac...but no heartbeat. It's measuring small tho...only 6wks 3days...when i should be 7 wks even. So the Doc said "it could be a late bloomer." So we have to go back next Friday morning and there should definitely be a heartbeat and it will be bigger so hopefully easier to see things. At this point the doctors says it's a 50/50 shot of being a viable pregnancy. If there is no heartbeat i will be devistated.

So here's to hoping we checked too early.

Front Planter

Well, we've debated on what to do with the front yard since moving into the house. We did some work on it yesterday. Not extravagant or anything. But we think it looks nice. We'll probably put some flowers in there too. Enjoy the pics. The little bugs on a stick my sis-in-law Barbara gave me for my bday this year. They are so cute!

temptation....

Oh how i'd love to have one of these!! I haven't had one in almost two weeks (2 weeks tomorrow-since we found out). I usually can keep the idea of having one away...but already today I'm thinking i need one.

But i wont! I'll refrain and drink my MILLIONTH bottle of water. I have honestly never drank SO MUCH Water in my life till these last two weeks.

*I took another test this morning cause I'm feeling too good...and it was still Positive. So i should stop worrying about feeling too good and enjoy it while it lasts.

my b-day present...still waiting on...

So I've been waiting on my b-day present for about 4 weeks now. My blue Oakley's i bought in like 2001-2002 broke last summer. So i decided to send them in and get a replacement pair (with a discount-when i returned the broken ones to them). Well I've called seriously like 5 times since i mailed the box to them with my broken ones in it. Every time time i called they said they still hadn't received my box. Stupid me didn't get a tracking # thru USPS. Well...on my fifth call today i got the great news they they FINALLY got my box "registered" just two days ago! I sent it to them Priority on 4/16/09!!!

I am SO relieved that they have it and are processes my order. Lovely Vanessa today was super nice and helpful. I was ready to be mean. LOL. Especially since i was on hold for 12 mins! I am supposed to get an email with a tracking # when it gets shipped. Probably the beginning of next week!! YAY!!!

Here is a look at my soon to be NEW glasses...

increased beautifully

So i got the call today right around noon. We went from 49 on Thursday to a 290 today! YAY!!! So that is totally good news. So we have an U/S scheduled for May 29th in Boise. They want to take one last look to make sure everything looks good before i "graduate" (their term not mine) to see an OB/Gyn in Twin.

January 15, 2010
(it's nice knowing exactly with you conceived. LOL.)
Can't come soon enough!

I know we aren't out of the woods.
We've got A LONG ways to go.
But we're excited.
And THANK YOU for being so excited for us!

ear infection

So i had a cold and it finally went away a week from last Friday. Well this Friday it decided to come back...with an ear infection! I've had 2 ear infections in the past year! I haven't had one in AGES previous to that. So i was concerned not really "knowing" if i am truly PREGNANT or not. So i decided to take the only "pee test" i still hadn't used.

here are the results....



YAY!! YAY!! YAY!! YAY!! YAY!! YAY!! YAY!! YAY!! YAY!! YAY!! YAY!! YAY!!

So we go to the Physician's Immediate Care cause my ear was KILLING ME and yup sure enough its a middle ear infection. Joy! So he said even in early pregnancy it's OK to take amoxicillan. He also gave me ear drops to help with the pain. Which we filled both immediately. I don't think i would have made it thru the night last night if we didn't go see the Doc. So I've only taken one pill so far, I'll take on again here in a minute (after i eat something) but i am SO CONCERNED about taking amoxicillian. I've read on-line that it's OK, but still i don't want it to cause a miscarriage.

WHAT DO YOU THINK ABOUT TAKING IT???

preliminary test results are in....

We have a (small) POSITIVE pregnancy test!!!!!

The numbers are low, but it's still SO EARLY.
(i won't be due till January 2010)

So i need to go in again on Monday to have another blood test to check to make sure that the numbers are increasing. If they are not then we worry about an ectopic (tubal) pregnancy.

WE ARE SO EXCITED!!!!!
(seems so unreal)

CONTINUED PRAYERS ARE APPRECIATED. :)

another BDAY

Happy Birthday today (5/1) to my dear friend Sarah Maz! Oh how i miss our dual BDay celebrations.

Much Love!!!
JB

another year older...

I can't believe i'm 31!!! That just sounds too old. LOL. I guess you are only as old as you feel, right? So some days i feel 18 and other days 60. So i guess it balances out. :)

Last night i was told by Kevin to just "relax" and rest so i can get feeling better from this stupid cold. Well i was talking to my sister Carolyn on the phone and the front blinds were cracked open. I could tell a car just pulled up in my driveway. Who could it be? I wasn't expecting anyone. Well i open the door and there are Emily, Jen & Lauren. They kidnapped me! They were nice enough to let me change out of my pink Mickey Mouse pjs pants (my sis-in-law made me) and Kevin's old white church shirt. LOL. They took me to the movies where Jenn & Cat joined us too. We went and saw 17 Again. Cute movie. We were the ONLY 6 people in the theater. It was pretty cool. :) So if we didn't show up they wouldn't have had to play the movie. LOL. Gotta love small town Idaho. Then after the movie we went to Dairy Queen and had some ice cream, chatted & laughed. We weren't paying attention to the time and i guess they wanted to close so they turned the lights out on us! I couldn't believe it. They didn't come up to us and say..."we are closing in 5 mins" or something like that. *kevin was in on the kidnapping-sneaky sneaky!*

THANK YOU GIRLS FOR A FUN NIGHT!!!!!

Here's to hoping my 31st year will be a good one!

New Recipe

I tried out a recipe my sister Natalie told me about. We loved it. So i posted it on the RECIPE BLOG i am apart of. The recipe is "Crockpot Creamy Shredded Chicken"

status update

So i guess i should update since it's been over a week. Sunday we went to Boise had an u/s. My one really good one was at a 15.5, which is just shy of what they want...18. So they said not to do any more meds and we'll check in another u/s on Tuesday. Well i had one move vial of medicine...so i did one last shot to give it that extra push it needed. So Tuesday go in for another u/s and HOT DANG it was ready! So we scheduled an IUI for Thursday. So we went to boise yesterday and did the IUI. So now we wait and see. One of the u/s techs on tuesday was one of the first ones that saw me back in January when we started this whole process. She was SO IMPRESSED with how "beautiful" my lining was. She said, "i probably shouldn't say this, but when you first started (back in January) i was a little worried it wasn't going to work for you (ever) because your lining wasn't so great, but now look at it!" So i guess i'll take the compliment.

So...it only takes one...so lets hope this one is it!

thursday u/s

So I went for another u/s today. I was excited to see that there was some good growth. I've got 4 follicles. They range from 13-8...we need one (or more) to be an 18. So...that obviously means more meds. So, I'll do more meds this week/end and we will head to Boise on Sunday to do an u/s, since they don't do them here in Twin on the weekends. I am checking ovulation tests, just incase, tho i doubt i would ovulate on my own. If I have a postive ovulation test on Saturday then we will turn Sunday's appt into an IUI appt instead of just an u/s.


Funny side note: As i was racing back to the office after my appt this morning (which took longer then expected) I was pulled over for speeding. The first time in 9yrs that i've been pulled over. I was happy to have only received a warning. Yay!!! Only the 2nd time being pulled over ever. And i like to speed!

Monday u/s

A disappointing appointment today. There was hardly any growth at all. They are REALLY pumping the meds these next three days and then I'll have another u/s on Thursday. I am SO ready to have this done and over with. I am SO emotionally drained it's not even funny! I just want it to end either way. Pregnant or not. I've been having an impression that we need to get our adoption paperwork together. I felt that way after round two...and i'm feeling it again. I don't know if it's my way of giving up on this stupid process or if it's inspriation. Either way, i think we need to do it. What's a $1000 for the paperwork to be processed compared to the thousands we've spent over these last 3-4 months with fruitless results.

Sorry i'm such a downer lately.

Appointment Update

So Friday we left for my appt. and I was quite nervous and setting myself up for the bad news. So when the doctor comes in she said "we'll do that follicle count first and then we will do the water ultrasound." I said "OK, sounds good." Well when she started the u/s to do the follicle count to see how my eggs were doing she noticed my lining is just fine and where it should be! WOO! HOOO!!!! There was no need to do the water u/s. She just thinks that i hadn't had the heavist part of my cycle yet by the time we did the inital u/s so...ALL IS WELL!!!! My eggs are doing good. Still small. But my left side has finally decided to participate in the growing of follicles. I had about 5-6 follicles that were measuring about 7-8, usually i have like 1-2 maybe. We need to get them up to around 18.

SO...i've been doing more meds and then i have an u/s Monday in Twin to see how we are doing and if i need more meds. I'm thinking...Yes i'll need more. Just cause my body is so stubborn. So the appt was much shorter (& cheaper) then we thought it was going to be. YAY!!!!

I am so grateful for you all and for all the prayers you have said on our behalf.
THANK YOU!!

*more to come later about our stay in Boise and ALL the fun we had!*

3 weeks of being lazy

So i haven't worked out in 3 weeks...till yesterday. It (spinning) kicked my butt!! I am glad to get back to working out. I gained 5-7 lbs back in those three weeks! I'm blaming part of it on the medicine and being bloated. LOL. Plus i ate WAY too much Easter candy. I just LOVE Cadbury Creme eggs & the Reese's peanut butter eggs. YUMMMMM. I have one of each of those at my desk right now! I can't leave Walmart without buying them.

So i think we are going to make it a "weekend" trip to Boise. We are thinking of staying the night at a friends house and then checking out a museum or zoo or something in Boise. Since we haven't done anything like that in forever. We'll come home on Saturday and then Sunday head to Kevin's parents for Easter.

I guess i better ask our friends if we could stay the night at their place. LOL.

stupid body of mine

So, we have decided to do one last round before needing to take a (financial) break. Well this morning i went in for a baseline u/s to just check out how things look. They do these u/s on day 2 or 3 of your cycle. Well apparently my lining is TWICE as thick as it should be. So now there is worry that there might be a polyp(s) in my uterus not allowing the lining to thin correctly. So now we are going to Boise on Friday (4/10) to have a water u/s done by Dr. Slater to see how things look and hopefully rule out what might be the cause. If there is a polyp and we don't get pregnant this round the doctor would recommend having it (them) removed. So...now we wait till next Friday to see how things look in there. But i continue on with the meds as normal.

UGH!!!! WHY!?!? Why does it have to be so hard!?!

* now up to 25 friends pregnant or have given birth this year.*

Training

My friend Sarah B. & I were talking today. We are going to train for a 5K! She already started today. So I'll have to start tomorrow.

I found this website that lists all the races that are happening in Idaho. You can look up your state too.

planter

We are building a planter in the backyard. It's right off the side of our back patio. We have a bit of a slope there and thought that would be a good idea. Well we were going to use railroad ties, but thought better of it and went with bricks instead. Well we decided if we want to get right on it Saturday morning we should buy them ahead of time. So we run to Lowe's Thursday night. We don't have a truck you see, just a little Honda Accord. So this was quite the adventure. After we got everything we needed loaded onto the flat bed cart, Kevin needed help pushing it to the cash register, it was SO heavy! So a helper bee from the garden center was super nice and helped Kevin. Well i watched in horror as Kevin starts loading it into the car. Of course all the while he keeps telling me it's going to fit. Well yeah it fit but will be bottom out and be complete low riders?! Well we were definitely low riders but we made it home, very slowly. A guy even pulled up next to us in his big truck offering to take them to our house for us, if we lived close by. Which we don't. But thanked him for the offer anyway. We still need to weigh the bricks to see how heavy they are. Enjoy the pictures.

* There were 30 of those bricks, 4 bags of rock, and plastic tubing. We had 2 bricks up by my feet, so i rode home with my feet on the dashboard.

Dr. called...

...the test came back negative.

But after talking with my sister Carolyn, who has gone thru this same thing, she has given me some hope. When she was trying for her second child, my niece Madison, her test came back negative too. She accepted it. Well, she felt like she was pregnant and waited another week and took a home test and it was postitive. It was just too early to check.

So i think that's what i am going to do. Wait another week and see. I feel like i have some symptoms of pregnancy, but who knows, my body could be playing tricks on me. So if i test in a week and it's still negative. Then there is our final answer.