splash of color

My mom insisted that we needed some color in our front planter. So we headed to the store and got some.

BEFORE

AFTER

I think she was right. Looks pretty.

9 years...

Happy 9th Anniversary My love!
Marrying you was the BEST thing i did.
I Love You Forever!!

i know i know...

...it's been a few weeks now. Honestly we've done stuff and taken pictures...but i just don't have the desire to blog right now. hopefully soon.

much love!

JB

Miche Handbags

I was invited to a Miche Handbag party last night at a friends house. I had never heard of them before i got this invite. Jenni showed me hers at church this past Sunday. SO COOL!! It's the bag for women who LOVE purses and buy new ones all the time. They are kind of spendy, i think, but when you think about all the money & storage you need for a multitude of bags, it's worth it!

How it works is you buy a classic Black or Brown bag and then you just buy "shells" for it. So it's the same bag but the outside looks different. No having to switch your stuff from bag to bag. There are strong magnets that hold the shell on. The ladies that had them said they've never had a problem with the shells falling off.

HERE is the official site.

But you can find them on EBAY too.

** I was late to the party because i was meeting with the Bishop so i didn't get to hear the "schpeal" the lady gave. But the pictures don't do the bags justice. They are really adorable!! **

Last Boise Appointment...

This Friday we are heading to Boise for TWO reasons. Well, the first initial reason we were heading that way is for a Family Reunion for Kevin's mom's side of the family. I'm up for a little camping. We'll see how it goes. This is my first family reunion with his family...so we'll see if we go to more. hee hee. just kidding. i'm sure we'll go. ;)

But it turns out to be a great thing we were already heading that way cause I'll have my LAST appointment in Boise for the year with Dr. Slater. I chatted with the doc yesterday, as we had a 2week follow up phone call planned, after the news of our non-viable pregnancy. So she was pleased with how i told her the miscarriage is going cause hopefully that means no D&C. But she wants to do an u/s to make sure there is nothing left in there (just incase) and some bloodwork. So it just so happened we were going to be out that way anyway on Friday...so it worked out prefectly! We will also do the other bloodwork that she wants us to do to see if there are other problems causing our miscarriages. So hopefully we'll have some answers in the coming weeks.

Visitors

Just spoke with me Mum.

My Parents will be up here for a week long visit in ONE MONTH!!

YAY!!!

mother nature

Mother Nature is finally taking it's course with this miscarriage. I have been waiting for it to happen since a week ago Friday, so i wouldn't have to have a D&C. But it couldn't have come on a worse weekend. We were supposed to attend our friends baby sealing at the Twin Falls Temple Saturday morning. I was fighting it (the pain) and really wanted to go. So we got ready and got on the freeway. But we had to turn around, i just couldn't do it. I AM SO SORRY Jeff & Jen. We wanted to be there so bad. We are so excited for you guys! Congrats!

Now, mother nature hurry & be done so i can get on with things.

nothing like starting all over again...

(Boot-Camp)
Oh how i LOVE & LOATH you!

Monday morning i went for my first class in about 2 months. I thought i was going to DIE! We started out by just jogging a mile around the track. I didn't think i could do it...but i did!!! Then we did all sorts of lunges, squats, push ups. Tuesday morning was a JOKE! I couldn't sit down to go potty for 2 days! I could barely walk "normal" - as much as a tried I'm sure it didn't look normal. LOL. Thursday was the first day i could walk without pain! Then of course there was class again this morning. Started out by jogging from the Rec Center up to the LDS church & back...about 1.6 miles! I jogged most of it, but walked some. I'm pretty proud of myself. But we'll see if i can move tomorrow. LOL.

** 12:15pm - just informed that our run may have been closer to 2-2.5 miles. i think I'll go clock it out tonight and see for sure. :D

Thank you

I feel like i am saying THANK YOU alot lately. And i am. But it's because i have the greatest Family & Friends. I have such a HUGE support system and it's awesome!! I just wanted to let you know how much i appreciate you all. I am doing pretty good. I think i was more prepared for this miscarriage then the first one, 5 years ago. It's still hard don't get me wrong, but i was a complete & udder wreck the first time. Friday was horrible. But the days are getting better.

Right now i am truly going to concentrate on myself. Get myself in the best possible shape that i can by next Spring when we try again. I know i keep hearing that my weight isn't the only issue with PCOS, but i know it's a factor. A factor that i should have control on...and apparently i don't. So that is my new goal. Get Control. :)

So tomorrow morning at 615am i will be at the Jerome Rec Center attending my first boot-camp class in MONTHS. I am going to die, but it will be awesome. Thanks Sarah B. for joining in the "fun" with me in the morning. :) I will also start attending my spinning classes again. The joy in the agony of getting in shape. I love it!

p.s. this is my 500th post. Crazy!!

Not Our Time

Went for the follow up ultrasound this morning. No heartbeat. The baby stopped growing at 6weeks. So now we try again another time.

THANK YOU for all your prayers on our behalf.

first vegg

Behold the glorious (first) bounty from our garden!
They were yummmy!

Sunset

I went to close the front window blinds last night and saw the most beautiful Sunset! I yelled to Kevin to get me the camera. The picture doesn't do it justice. But it's still pretty.

turning 300,000

So my mom bought a new Honda Accord back in 1986-87. I loved that car. We drove it to SOOO many volleyball practices and tournaments. It's seen it's fair share of the outside of a gym. When i got my drivers license i had the opportunity to drive her car to school on occasion while the other days driving my sisters car (mom & Nat would carpool to work) for 2 yrs. Then when i started going to San Bernardino Valley College, Natalie & I would car pool (she would drive) since we were both going to play volleyball there. Well Natalie ended up needing to drop out because of her knees. Well...i then needed a car. So we bought me a Red Toyota tercel. Named him Speedy...which is ironic because of his lack of speed. He was a good car, so i thought. He only lasted about 2-2.5 yrs. He died and was too expensive to fix. So then my mom came to me and said, "I have been wanting a new car how would you like to have the Honda?" I'm not sure my exact response but i'm sure it was something like, "Heck ya!!" So i have had it ever since 1999-ish. Kevin and I got married and were living in LA and i would drive it to Burbank everyday for work. We prayed that it would just last "one more year". THANKFULLY we were friends with a great "mechanic" (Chris Maz) that would work with Kevin on our car. thank you thank you!

Well here we are almost 9yrs into marriage and the 87' Honda-- which was named "Quarter Mil" since that's how many miles were on it when we decided to give it a name - is still plugging away.

Here are the latest pics of it turning over to 300,000 miles!!

TA-DA!!!!
We love you Qtr Mil. Please keep plugging away.

thank you

Thank you so much everyone for you thoughts, prayers and for the fast. That means so much to me!! I have been an emotional wreck. Tho i have to have hope that all will be well next Friday. We are currently at my in-laws, Kevin is helping take off the shingles on the roof so they can put a new set on. Last night my MIL and i ran over to the Rupert Hospital and did an HCG test (cause she works in the lab and they did it for free). My numbers are still increasing greatly. The tech that was working last night read in a book that they are right where they are supposed to be for how far along i am. But then he gave a "warning", he said "it just means your body is building something i can't say that it is geneticaly correct". Since he is no Dr, he didn't want to get my hopes up that everything will be OK. But to see the numbers so increased gave me some Hope. So that was nice. Thanks Linda!

ok news...

Well, we went to our appointment this morning in Boise. I was very anxious this morning. Tho very hopefully. We got called back pretty quick after arriving. The tech started the ultrasound and there in the WAY FAR UPPER right corner there is the sac. Just one. It was hard to get a good view of it with the "internal" u/s view...so we tried on top of the belly. Got a little better view. Still not great. I got even more anxious (& teary) and she was having a very hard time finding everything. She was concerned so she got the Doctor to come in and do a little viewing herself. So in comes Dr. Slater and she started taking a look. Sure enough the sac looks great, there's a yolk sac...but no heartbeat. It's measuring small tho...only 6wks 3days...when i should be 7 wks even. So the Doc said "it could be a late bloomer." So we have to go back next Friday morning and there should definitely be a heartbeat and it will be bigger so hopefully easier to see things. At this point the doctors says it's a 50/50 shot of being a viable pregnancy. If there is no heartbeat i will be devistated.

So here's to hoping we checked too early.

Front Planter

Well, we've debated on what to do with the front yard since moving into the house. We did some work on it yesterday. Not extravagant or anything. But we think it looks nice. We'll probably put some flowers in there too. Enjoy the pics. The little bugs on a stick my sis-in-law Barbara gave me for my bday this year. They are so cute!

temptation....

Oh how i'd love to have one of these!! I haven't had one in almost two weeks (2 weeks tomorrow-since we found out). I usually can keep the idea of having one away...but already today I'm thinking i need one.

But i wont! I'll refrain and drink my MILLIONTH bottle of water. I have honestly never drank SO MUCH Water in my life till these last two weeks.

*I took another test this morning cause I'm feeling too good...and it was still Positive. So i should stop worrying about feeling too good and enjoy it while it lasts.

my b-day present...still waiting on...

So I've been waiting on my b-day present for about 4 weeks now. My blue Oakley's i bought in like 2001-2002 broke last summer. So i decided to send them in and get a replacement pair (with a discount-when i returned the broken ones to them). Well I've called seriously like 5 times since i mailed the box to them with my broken ones in it. Every time time i called they said they still hadn't received my box. Stupid me didn't get a tracking # thru USPS. Well...on my fifth call today i got the great news they they FINALLY got my box "registered" just two days ago! I sent it to them Priority on 4/16/09!!!

I am SO relieved that they have it and are processes my order. Lovely Vanessa today was super nice and helpful. I was ready to be mean. LOL. Especially since i was on hold for 12 mins! I am supposed to get an email with a tracking # when it gets shipped. Probably the beginning of next week!! YAY!!!

Here is a look at my soon to be NEW glasses...

increased beautifully

So i got the call today right around noon. We went from 49 on Thursday to a 290 today! YAY!!! So that is totally good news. So we have an U/S scheduled for May 29th in Boise. They want to take one last look to make sure everything looks good before i "graduate" (their term not mine) to see an OB/Gyn in Twin.

January 15, 2010
(it's nice knowing exactly with you conceived. LOL.)
Can't come soon enough!

I know we aren't out of the woods.
We've got A LONG ways to go.
But we're excited.
And THANK YOU for being so excited for us!

ear infection

So i had a cold and it finally went away a week from last Friday. Well this Friday it decided to come back...with an ear infection! I've had 2 ear infections in the past year! I haven't had one in AGES previous to that. So i was concerned not really "knowing" if i am truly PREGNANT or not. So i decided to take the only "pee test" i still hadn't used.

here are the results....



YAY!! YAY!! YAY!! YAY!! YAY!! YAY!! YAY!! YAY!! YAY!! YAY!! YAY!! YAY!!

So we go to the Physician's Immediate Care cause my ear was KILLING ME and yup sure enough its a middle ear infection. Joy! So he said even in early pregnancy it's OK to take amoxicillan. He also gave me ear drops to help with the pain. Which we filled both immediately. I don't think i would have made it thru the night last night if we didn't go see the Doc. So I've only taken one pill so far, I'll take on again here in a minute (after i eat something) but i am SO CONCERNED about taking amoxicillian. I've read on-line that it's OK, but still i don't want it to cause a miscarriage.

WHAT DO YOU THINK ABOUT TAKING IT???

preliminary test results are in....

We have a (small) POSITIVE pregnancy test!!!!!

The numbers are low, but it's still SO EARLY.
(i won't be due till January 2010)

So i need to go in again on Monday to have another blood test to check to make sure that the numbers are increasing. If they are not then we worry about an ectopic (tubal) pregnancy.

WE ARE SO EXCITED!!!!!
(seems so unreal)

CONTINUED PRAYERS ARE APPRECIATED. :)

another BDAY

Happy Birthday today (5/1) to my dear friend Sarah Maz! Oh how i miss our dual BDay celebrations.

Much Love!!!
JB

another year older...

I can't believe i'm 31!!! That just sounds too old. LOL. I guess you are only as old as you feel, right? So some days i feel 18 and other days 60. So i guess it balances out. :)

Last night i was told by Kevin to just "relax" and rest so i can get feeling better from this stupid cold. Well i was talking to my sister Carolyn on the phone and the front blinds were cracked open. I could tell a car just pulled up in my driveway. Who could it be? I wasn't expecting anyone. Well i open the door and there are Emily, Jen & Lauren. They kidnapped me! They were nice enough to let me change out of my pink Mickey Mouse pjs pants (my sis-in-law made me) and Kevin's old white church shirt. LOL. They took me to the movies where Jenn & Cat joined us too. We went and saw 17 Again. Cute movie. We were the ONLY 6 people in the theater. It was pretty cool. :) So if we didn't show up they wouldn't have had to play the movie. LOL. Gotta love small town Idaho. Then after the movie we went to Dairy Queen and had some ice cream, chatted & laughed. We weren't paying attention to the time and i guess they wanted to close so they turned the lights out on us! I couldn't believe it. They didn't come up to us and say..."we are closing in 5 mins" or something like that. *kevin was in on the kidnapping-sneaky sneaky!*

THANK YOU GIRLS FOR A FUN NIGHT!!!!!

Here's to hoping my 31st year will be a good one!

New Recipe

I tried out a recipe my sister Natalie told me about. We loved it. So i posted it on the RECIPE BLOG i am apart of. The recipe is "Crockpot Creamy Shredded Chicken"

status update

So i guess i should update since it's been over a week. Sunday we went to Boise had an u/s. My one really good one was at a 15.5, which is just shy of what they want...18. So they said not to do any more meds and we'll check in another u/s on Tuesday. Well i had one move vial of medicine...so i did one last shot to give it that extra push it needed. So Tuesday go in for another u/s and HOT DANG it was ready! So we scheduled an IUI for Thursday. So we went to boise yesterday and did the IUI. So now we wait and see. One of the u/s techs on tuesday was one of the first ones that saw me back in January when we started this whole process. She was SO IMPRESSED with how "beautiful" my lining was. She said, "i probably shouldn't say this, but when you first started (back in January) i was a little worried it wasn't going to work for you (ever) because your lining wasn't so great, but now look at it!" So i guess i'll take the compliment.

So...it only takes one...so lets hope this one is it!

thursday u/s

So I went for another u/s today. I was excited to see that there was some good growth. I've got 4 follicles. They range from 13-8...we need one (or more) to be an 18. So...that obviously means more meds. So, I'll do more meds this week/end and we will head to Boise on Sunday to do an u/s, since they don't do them here in Twin on the weekends. I am checking ovulation tests, just incase, tho i doubt i would ovulate on my own. If I have a postive ovulation test on Saturday then we will turn Sunday's appt into an IUI appt instead of just an u/s.


Funny side note: As i was racing back to the office after my appt this morning (which took longer then expected) I was pulled over for speeding. The first time in 9yrs that i've been pulled over. I was happy to have only received a warning. Yay!!! Only the 2nd time being pulled over ever. And i like to speed!

Monday u/s

A disappointing appointment today. There was hardly any growth at all. They are REALLY pumping the meds these next three days and then I'll have another u/s on Thursday. I am SO ready to have this done and over with. I am SO emotionally drained it's not even funny! I just want it to end either way. Pregnant or not. I've been having an impression that we need to get our adoption paperwork together. I felt that way after round two...and i'm feeling it again. I don't know if it's my way of giving up on this stupid process or if it's inspriation. Either way, i think we need to do it. What's a $1000 for the paperwork to be processed compared to the thousands we've spent over these last 3-4 months with fruitless results.

Sorry i'm such a downer lately.

Appointment Update

So Friday we left for my appt. and I was quite nervous and setting myself up for the bad news. So when the doctor comes in she said "we'll do that follicle count first and then we will do the water ultrasound." I said "OK, sounds good." Well when she started the u/s to do the follicle count to see how my eggs were doing she noticed my lining is just fine and where it should be! WOO! HOOO!!!! There was no need to do the water u/s. She just thinks that i hadn't had the heavist part of my cycle yet by the time we did the inital u/s so...ALL IS WELL!!!! My eggs are doing good. Still small. But my left side has finally decided to participate in the growing of follicles. I had about 5-6 follicles that were measuring about 7-8, usually i have like 1-2 maybe. We need to get them up to around 18.

SO...i've been doing more meds and then i have an u/s Monday in Twin to see how we are doing and if i need more meds. I'm thinking...Yes i'll need more. Just cause my body is so stubborn. So the appt was much shorter (& cheaper) then we thought it was going to be. YAY!!!!

I am so grateful for you all and for all the prayers you have said on our behalf.
THANK YOU!!

*more to come later about our stay in Boise and ALL the fun we had!*

3 weeks of being lazy

So i haven't worked out in 3 weeks...till yesterday. It (spinning) kicked my butt!! I am glad to get back to working out. I gained 5-7 lbs back in those three weeks! I'm blaming part of it on the medicine and being bloated. LOL. Plus i ate WAY too much Easter candy. I just LOVE Cadbury Creme eggs & the Reese's peanut butter eggs. YUMMMMM. I have one of each of those at my desk right now! I can't leave Walmart without buying them.

So i think we are going to make it a "weekend" trip to Boise. We are thinking of staying the night at a friends house and then checking out a museum or zoo or something in Boise. Since we haven't done anything like that in forever. We'll come home on Saturday and then Sunday head to Kevin's parents for Easter.

I guess i better ask our friends if we could stay the night at their place. LOL.

stupid body of mine

So, we have decided to do one last round before needing to take a (financial) break. Well this morning i went in for a baseline u/s to just check out how things look. They do these u/s on day 2 or 3 of your cycle. Well apparently my lining is TWICE as thick as it should be. So now there is worry that there might be a polyp(s) in my uterus not allowing the lining to thin correctly. So now we are going to Boise on Friday (4/10) to have a water u/s done by Dr. Slater to see how things look and hopefully rule out what might be the cause. If there is a polyp and we don't get pregnant this round the doctor would recommend having it (them) removed. So...now we wait till next Friday to see how things look in there. But i continue on with the meds as normal.

UGH!!!! WHY!?!? Why does it have to be so hard!?!

* now up to 25 friends pregnant or have given birth this year.*

Training

My friend Sarah B. & I were talking today. We are going to train for a 5K! She already started today. So I'll have to start tomorrow.

I found this website that lists all the races that are happening in Idaho. You can look up your state too.

planter

We are building a planter in the backyard. It's right off the side of our back patio. We have a bit of a slope there and thought that would be a good idea. Well we were going to use railroad ties, but thought better of it and went with bricks instead. Well we decided if we want to get right on it Saturday morning we should buy them ahead of time. So we run to Lowe's Thursday night. We don't have a truck you see, just a little Honda Accord. So this was quite the adventure. After we got everything we needed loaded onto the flat bed cart, Kevin needed help pushing it to the cash register, it was SO heavy! So a helper bee from the garden center was super nice and helped Kevin. Well i watched in horror as Kevin starts loading it into the car. Of course all the while he keeps telling me it's going to fit. Well yeah it fit but will be bottom out and be complete low riders?! Well we were definitely low riders but we made it home, very slowly. A guy even pulled up next to us in his big truck offering to take them to our house for us, if we lived close by. Which we don't. But thanked him for the offer anyway. We still need to weigh the bricks to see how heavy they are. Enjoy the pictures.

* There were 30 of those bricks, 4 bags of rock, and plastic tubing. We had 2 bricks up by my feet, so i rode home with my feet on the dashboard.

Dr. called...

...the test came back negative.

But after talking with my sister Carolyn, who has gone thru this same thing, she has given me some hope. When she was trying for her second child, my niece Madison, her test came back negative too. She accepted it. Well, she felt like she was pregnant and waited another week and took a home test and it was postitive. It was just too early to check.

So i think that's what i am going to do. Wait another week and see. I feel like i have some symptoms of pregnancy, but who knows, my body could be playing tricks on me. So if i test in a week and it's still negative. Then there is our final answer.

knock & run

Last night we got home from a trip into Twin Falls. (more about that later) We just had eaten dinner and were sitting in the bean bag. it was close to 8-830pm and there as a LOUD knock at the door. Immediately my thoughts turn to the Elders, not again! So Kevin gets up and i prepare to turn off the TV. Kevin opens the door and no one is there, but i see him look towards the ground. There cutely arranged are these....



There was a VERY sweet note with them, which says: "Kevin & Jackie, Saw these, had to be yours, bought them. Because (even if its not tomorrow) someone in your family is waiting to wear them. Good luck. You are loved." Signed with a drawn heart. I do not recognize the writing.

THANK YOU SO MUCH SECRET FRIEND!!! I am going to bring them with me today to hopefully bring me good luck!!!

I'll post when i have news.

MUCH LOVE!!!

20...

...will I make twenty-one?!

I made a list yesterday out of curiosity. Wrote down all the names i could think of of my friends that are pregnant or have given birth just this year. I am also marking if they are having a girl or boy, just to see the ratio. I know there are more then that because in my sister Carolyn's extended family alone they are expecting like 8-9 babies! I have about 3-4 of them on my list. So far it's 10 girls to 7 boys. The others don't know yet or don't find out till the baby is born.

I had a friend comment yesterday that i am very calm with such impending news come Friday. I know Friday I'll be a complete wreck waiting for the news. But i feel like this is "our time". So i hope I'm right in feeling that way.

Damn Government

We owe Taxes this year.
The most we've ever owed!
We are SO PISSED!!!
So now we've changed our W-4's.
Hopefully we'll have GREAT news Friday
that will give us a tax deduction (come December).

OLD picture

This is i think one the last picture of all us four Ostler kids. Carolyn is the oldest girl, then my brother Russell, then Natalie, then Me. Rusty died when i was about 2.5 yrs old (he was 9 when he passed). So i don't remember him, but i am grateful for pictures of him. I often wonder how different growing up would have been with him still around. I am SO thankful for the knowledge of Eternal Families. Thanks Natalie for the scanned imagine!!

* If you click on the picture to make it bigger you can slightly see where i bit Natalie on the cheek. hee hee.

Spring can it really be you?!

Last night was SUCH a lovely evening when we got home from work. It was SO beautiful and warm and no wind (which there is ALWAYS wind). So Kevin & I took advantage of it. Still full from a very yummy lunch (thanks again Sarah B.), we didn't eat dinner, we just changed our clothes and headed outside! I weeded part of the yard and prepared the other side to be weeded tonight. Being a completely dirt side yards & back yard (the front is landscaped) there is going to be ALOT of weeding to do till we get some grass (hopefully this summer). Kevin washed BOTH cars last night. I think that's the first time they were washed in about 6 months. Nasty is know! They were BEYOND dirty. THANKS LOVE!!! We ended up just snacking on some popcorn later on in the evening.

side note

So i love that we all are thinking two weeks to find out the news is going to kill us. It just might. But i think it's even more funny that i won't be due till DECEMBER if i get pregnant. Talk about a LONG time to know about a pregnancy. LOL. Maybe it will be twins i can have them in November. :)

LONG Saturday

***WARNING: too much info may be provided. ***
***You have been warned!*** :)

It was a REALLY long day yesterday. But a good day. So i guess they counter balance each other.

I was up mainly since around 5am cause i couldn't sleep. Got out of bed finally around 550am. Checked a few things on the web. I was going to re-shave my legs and paint my toes all pretty for the doctor, but i didn't. They could deal with 2 days worth of stubble, and they wouldn't even see my toes anyway cause i had socks on. :)

We left for Boise at 730am. The weather couldn't have been more perfect on our way out. It was a bit windy coming back. We got to the Drs. office a few minutes early. They called Kevin back to ah.... "do his thing" and then we waited anxiously to get called back.

Well we waited and waited and waited and waited. I had to pee really bad so i went to ask the nurse if they were going to need any urine samples - she said no. So i quickly walked to the back to go potty. Then we waited and waited and waited and waited some more! I went thru two magazine's (very slowly) and then i started pacing in the waiting room, i just couldn't sit anymore, After watching couple after couple come and go. I finally asked if everything was alright and if we were going to get called back soon. Well i don't know if my pacing made them hurry up or what cause we finally got called back. They said it takes an HOUR to process the sperm. That would have been good to know at the beginning of our TWO HOUR waiting time!!!

The whole actual procedure took maybe 5-10 mins. The Doctor said everything looked PERFECT. There were more then enough "men" and my lining was perfect, my cervix was wide open which meant i was ovulating. So...now we wait till March 27th to do some blood work to see if it all worked!!!

When then made a quick lunch stop at Carls Jr. I don't know if it was cause i was starving or what but that was THE BEST BURGER i've had in a long while! We hopped on the freeway. Came home. Meet the missionaries for about 15-20 mins so they can give Kevin all their progress for the week so he can tell the bishop about it in meetings this morning. Then we headed out to Burley for some family time. Kevin's brother Lynn was coming over for a visit. We got home about 1130pm.

Now i REALLY wished i would have gotten a sub for nursery today so i could stay home and rest. Oh well. Hopefully the kids are good today.

change of plans

Well after a few (4) weirdly resulting ovulation tests Friday i called the Dr a "little" panicked. But they, being in better control of their emotions, reassured me all was fine and that i should come in Saturday instead of Sunday. So...we are off to Boise in ONE hour. Kevin & Jeff (our friend, not his brother) gave me a blessing last night. I of course cried thru the whole thing. But i feel good this morning.

Thank you for your prayers. Much love!

WISH US LUCK!!!

a little premature - but that's OK

I have the coolest sisters ever!
I put them both on a quest and they pulled thru for me!

So we'll be receiving in the mail...

I AM SO EXCITED!!!!

Natalie checked in NC and they were out. But Carolyn was able to find one in CA!! I will pay her back for it, of course. But i saw it last Saturday while shopping for a baby shower i was attending that day. Took pictures with my phone of it and showed Kevin. He loved it too. So i began the quest to find it. NO WHERE could i locate it. Not in Twin Falls. Not in Boise. Not in Pocatello. Not even on Amazon.com or Target.com. They were all sold out! There were 3 in Redlands. WOO HOO!

I know it's TOTALLY premature to be buying it. We don't even know if we'll get pregnant this month or not, but i really wanted it. And plus i have to have faith & hope that all is going to work out for us! :)

THANK YOU CAROLYN & NATALIE!!!!
I LOVE YOU!!!

2nd U/S

Well i just got done with my second u/s. It went better then I expected! I am SO excited. I can't wait to hear from the Doctor to see what the plan is. The egg on my right side is now up to a 17! AND...there is one of my left that is a 12! Where did that one come from?!

So now i sit here smiling ear to ear with great anticipation.

** UPDATE **

So the Doc called. I was a little off on the sizes. Right is 16 & left is only 9.5. I don't know how i heard 12. LOL. Wishful thinking i guess. They like them to be 18+. The right one should grow to that by Sunday. But for sure the right one will release. But the plan is Sunday 10am to do the IUI!!! So I'll do my trigger shot Saturday morning. YAY!!!

first u/s down...

...another one to go.

I went and had my U/S this morning. I haven't been as stressed about this cycle for some reason. But of course i am hoping and praying that it works this go around. I actually left the appt feeling optimistic this morning! Unlike the last round when i left crying each time. I still only have ONE follicle (egg) that is of any measurable size. But already it's almost as big as the last one was after ALL the meds we did in Jan/Feb. Last one only measured a 12 when we called it a wash, this one is already measuring a 10 (i think they like it around an 16-18)! I've already got my "plan of attack" from the Doctors office (they already called me). We'll do double shots Tonight thru Wednesday and then do another U/S on Thursday to see how its going. Wow, they just called to schedule my u/s appt for Thursday at 10am!

I think your prayers on our behalf are really truly being heard. I thank you from the bottom of my heart! At first i didn't want to let everyone know we were doing this because i did want there to be another miscarriage and have to give the bad/sad news. But i am SO glad that I've told everyone. I am so thankful for the encouragement, prayers, & fasting done on our behalf. I truly have the GREATEST friends & family. I love you all!

sledding

My sister Carolyn lives in So. Cal. They are very close to the mountains. My niece & nephew are 10 & 8. They barely went sledding for the FIRST TIME! I couldn't believe it! I think, Alec 14, has gone before. If i remember correctly Madison didn't like it as much as the boys since it was so cold. I told them they need to come to Idaho to go sledding. Magic Mtn. Ski Resort has an awesome sledding hill and they even have a pulley system to get you up the hill! No Hiking if you don't want to! Well here is a picture of Carolyn's three kids. They used boogie boards too as sleds. Love CA sledding. :) Love you guys!!!!

round 2 update

I officially started my clomid pills on Saturday.

I'll start my shots on Thursday.

Monday morning I'll go for my U/S to see how the little follicle's are doing.
* It was supposed to be Sunday, but they don't do them here on Sunday's
and i really don't feel like driving to Boise for a 5 minute appt. *
BEEN THERE! DONE THAT!

Frozen Chocolate Chip Cookie Dough Balls

I added this recipe to the Recipe Blog i am apart of...but i decided i should put it on here too. We made them on Sunday...they are gone already. Yeah, i pretty much ate them all! :)

THANKS EMILY for introducing me to these. D'lish!

INGREDIENTS:
1 cup butter, softened
1 1/2 cups brown sugar, packed
2 teaspoons vanilla extract
1 tablespoon water
2 cups all-purpose flour
3/4 cup mini semisweet chocolate chips
3/4 cup chopped walnuts, if desired


DIRECTIONS:
1. Cream the butter and sugar in a mixing bowl. Stir in the vanilla, water, flour, chocolate chips,
and walnuts, if desired, and mix until well blended. (dough will be granulated till rolled together) Roll dough into bite-sized balls. Place on a baking sheet and freeze until firm, about 2 hours. Store balls in resealable plastic bags in the freezer.

*I froze mine on a plate covered with suran wrap.

DING DING!!

...ROUND 2 begins.

My medicine for round two just arrived in the mail this morning. I will probably start them sometime near the end of the week or maybe on the weekend.

I don't have the nerves i had last month. I don't know. Maybe i'm thinking i already know it's not going to work, so i don't have my hopes up (yet). I'm sure all the nerves and stress will appear when we start doing the ultrasounds to see how my little follicles are doing.

So...now the waiting begins.

**OH! i do not have pics of us tubing on Saturday. Our camera battery was dead and Kevin's parents didn't bring their camera either. darn. But just so you know...IT WAS WICKED AWESOME!! And i have the bruises to prove it. :) I think i bruise too easily.

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saturday tubing

Kevin's parents called this week asked if we wanted to go tubing sometime soon.
My response..."HECK YA!!!"
So we are going this Saturday!
I'll post pictures then.

OH! Congrats to Tiff & Donny!
They found out they are having a GIRL!!

blogging from...

... HOME!

Yup, we FINALLY got internet at home hooked up yesterday. Kevin was gracious and stayed and waited for the cable guy. Kevin finally got into work at 3pm. LOL.

Well, we are off to Valentine's lunch. So we'll chat more later.  :)

HAPPY VALENTINE'S DAY!!

new pics of ME

This is my "cool" new Profile pic. My "Elvis" glasses i got from a Rock Star Party.

Don't i look SO OLD in this bottom picture?!

What the heck!?!?

pregnancy/baby articles

Hearing talk of caffeine and pregnancy issues i was doing a little internet searching. Ran across a fun article about choosing your baby's sex. Then in that article there was a link to a different one where if you are already pregnant that "predicts" what you are having.

HERE is the first article.

HERE is the second one.

we are gamers

Saturday was a day of playing games. Well i guess i should say an afternoon/evening of games. We ran to Burley to make a quick stop to the Church Bookstore out there and then went to Kevin's parents house to eat their food for lunch.  :)   Thanks Doug & Linda for the free meal. Well we decided to break out the Wii. We ended up playing Raving Rabbids, which they got for Christmas. It was SO much fun! I totally kicked butt!

Then we ran back to Jerome to make a dessert to go over to Jeff & Jen's for game night at 5pm. I still needed to shower for the day. Gross i know. Then we left there and went to the Roger's for a 7pm Rock Star party. We didn't dress up. We're slackers. Plus we didn't get there till about 730pm. Which was OK, since they themselves had just "gotten ready".

Needless to say when we got home (11-ish i would guess) and sat in the beanbag...we totally crashed!

What a fun day! Plus i organized our Pantry. It's been needing it, but i was thinking it would take forever...which it didn't! So, i think it just needs to be a monthly thing.

calling it....

... a wash. 

Follicle isn't growing and lining is thinning & becoming unstable.

So, it didn't work this month but there is always next.

no good news...

Went in this morning. If i remember correctly the measurement is smaller then it was on Sunday. I don't know how that's possible. But who knows. Each time i go in for an u/s its done by a different person. So maybe they aren't measuring it the same way. I don't know. I am willing to drive into Boise to have another u/s to have the doc do it herself and so we can chat. So now it's the waiting game to see what the doc says about this mornings u/s.

Thank you for the well wishes and prayers. We truly appreciate it.

more, more & more...

... medicine! This is the longest cycle known to man, I think! Well we are pushing more meds and i have another ultrasound scheduled for tomorrow (Friday) morning to see what is happening. I almost wanted to pull the plug on this cycle, but we've already invested so much time & money into it, might as well see it thru.  Here's hoping for good results tomorrow.

...till further notice...

Well, the Doc just called. Our trip to Boise is postponed till further notice. I am to go do some blood work in Twin tomorrow (Tuesday) and then they will let me know the plan from there. We are kind of relieved since the roads are HORRIBLE right now, so by tomorrow morning they would have not been any better... probably worse actually. So we'll see what tomorrow brings.

Year of the Ox

I love looking at Horoscopes.

Doesn't mean i believe them.

But find them interesting.

HERE are the 2009 Chinese Horoscopes.

Check it out!

turn around

Well...we went to Boise on Sunday. It was quite the white knuckle drive. It was pretty icy and the snow was drifting across the highway. We made it tho...a little late. But we spent MAYBE 10 mins with the Dr. (not my doc, but the other one-didn't like him as much) and he told us to come back on Tuesday. That should be the day we can do the IUI. Still only ONE follicle that is big enough. Stupid ovaries!!! I am NOT counting on this round happening for us.

But we got to see our friends, Tyler & Jenny, and it was lovely! So we have plans to meet them tomorrow for lunch when we head back. Tomorrow's drive should be worse. It's snowing like mad here today and its not supposed to get above freezing in the next few days. We'll be leaving at the crack of dawn and taking our time on the drive. THANKFULLY my parents bought us chains...so we should be OK if we need to get them out.

weekend trip

Well not really, but we are heading to Boise on Sunday. I have a Drs. appt. at 11-am on Sunday. Who know the Drs. office was even OPEN on Sunday. But i have to do a 3rd ultrasound to see how my little follicles are doing. Thursday view of them was slightly disappointing. I am a bit frustrated. But i am hopeful that Sunday will bring better news. Here's to hoping for good roads for our trek to the BIG city. GIANT really compared to where we are.  :)

Jerome County Population: 18,300 (Approx.)

Boise: 125,000 (Approx.)

not entertaining

So i mentioned to my friend yesterday that i haven't been as good as i have been in the past about updating my blog. She mentioned that she hasn't started one yet cause it seems like alot of work. I said they do feel that way sometimes. Especially for me because i don't feel like i am that "entertaining". I don't have kids to post about or anything truly exciting anymore now that the house is done being built. Maybe I'll have posts in the spring with our yard updates...but that's about it. Hoping to have pregnancy news, but that is always a touchy subject. Many if not all of you know about my fertility problems. We are currently working with a Doc in Boise to help us start our family. I said after our miscarriage almost 5yrs ago that i would NEVER EVER tell anyone we were expecting till i couldn't hide it anymore or i was too sick to hide it. Well we are NOT pregnant yet, but hopefully soon. Many know already that i'm taking meds & what not, so i'll keep you posted. I know many friends have suffered miscarriages and trials with getting pregnant in the past so if i do announce we are expecting (which we are NOT yet) and then have to announce we are no longer expecting (which i HOPE doesn't happen again!!!). Please understand my lack of posting.

Gosh, i don't know why i wrote all that. Maybe because i'm a little stressed and hormonal with all the meds i'm taking. LOL.

** UPDATED 2:45pm**
Thanks everyone for the well wishes and saying that we are "entertaining" enough. I didn't mean to write it like i needed a "boost of confidence" or something. But thanks anyway! I think i needed to vent (or whatever) a little i guess.

help needed

OK. So i don't know ALL there is to know about blogging...obviously. :) But i was curious as to how people set up their "blog lists" to show when people have posted a new post on their blog. Often i click randomly on people's blogs to see if there have been updates. But I'd like to see to not have to do that. Make sense?

THANKS for your help!!

good weekend

I had a great weekend actually! Kevin came home on Friday. YAY!!! I went to the movies with my friends to see "Bride Wars". Loved it! Kevin & I ran into Twin before i went to the movies and got him his new iPod he has been saving for. He is SO good at saving his bday/Christmas $. I on the other hand...am not. :) We also had a little left over Christmas money and such so we purchased a little something....
We've been having so much fun!! We had our friends Tiff & Donny over on Saturday for dinner & games. We ended up playing a little. I think they liked it. They were both so tired that i don't know if they fully enjoyed the game after our great dinner & conversation. :) We'll have to plan a little better next time.

Sunday we went to Kevin's cousin's Mission Homecoming...which happens to be Tiff & Donny's new ward. So that was fun to see them two days in a row. Ryan did a great job. Talked a little less i think then is normal for a mission report. But it was great nonetheless. OH, and Ryan just got home on the 20th of Dec...and he already has a "girlfriend". I was shocked! But Kevin said he has always been a "ladies man". LOL.

cool website

So Kevin is on his way home from a business trip in PA today. YAY!!! They are flying home as we speak. Well they left PA and got to Chicago...where it was/is snowing ALOT...per Kevin's text. He said they even had to de-ice the plane. Which makes me nervous. But I'm sure the people at O'Hare airport are pros at that. Well my friend Sarah told me about a cool website were you can track the flight. You type in the airlines & flight # and it will show you on a map where it is and if they are on-time or delayed. So cool! So now i am watching Kevin fly across the US.

www.flightstats.com

Rainboots

So...i bought these rainboots on Clearance at Target. I love them.

I would like to get another "fun-ner" pair.
These are ones i've chosen off the website.

What do you guys think??

a few pics

OK here are just a couple pictures from our CA trip and what we arrived home to.

We had to shovel before we could pull into the garage. So we parked in the street. Shoveled and then pulled the car into the garage. Thankfully we had Kevin's brother Jeff shovel a day or two while we were gone or it would have been WAY bad! THANKS JEFF!!!!

Kevin using the packaging from a present as a "boa".  Nice Love!

Here are "my girls". When Kevin & I first got married i was put in as their primary teacher. They were approx. 5-6 years old! I taught them for almost 4 yrs. They were darling little kids and now look at them! They are Beautiful Young Women!!

Becca, Me, Kaitlyn & Tori.

Apparently Tori & I are looking at a different camera. LOL.

Lastly the Ostler Family.

With Natalie surprising us for a visit we had hoped that we'd get a family photo taken. Since it's been YEARS since our last good one. Well the lady we wanted to have it done by had to work. So we improvised. Kevin & I took the pics and then when it was time for the group shot we set it on a timer and Kevin would run into the picture. Needs a little touching up for lighting I tried a "quick fix" it helped some. 

Back: Alec, Michael, Carolyn, Dad, Steve, Natalie, Me & Kevin

Front: Derek, Madison, Mom, Dallin & Sam

Kevin & I had a GREAT time going to CA for Christmas. It was the first time home in 3yrs! Way too long! We went to the Beach, the museum for a show of William Wente's paintings, Kevin was SO excited to see it! We bought the book. There were some beautiful paintings. We had In-n-Out. Which was DIVINE!!! It will be SO worth the drive to St. George just for some more! What's 10hrs for a hamburger right?! We went to our old ward in Alhambra. Which was SO AWESOME! That truly felt like going home! How we miss that ward and all our friends there! There were alot of new faces but many many familiar and wonderful faces! We got to chat with alot of our friends. Thanks Lange's & Simpers for a wonderful dinner & conversation!! We just spent alot of time with family and it was great!!